I’ve been doing a lot of self-evaluation lately. I’ve been thinking a lot about my past and how it has effected my present and how I want it to impact my future. I’ve been diving into the issues of my childhood and the things that made me who I am today. I think it’s really great to take stock of our lives sometimes. I think it’s important to realize where you come from and how that has molded you, for the good and the bad. This awareness can lead to a more intentional future – one where you can hopefully avoid the pitfalls and embrace the positives. So, in doing this contemplation lately, I started thinking about whether I would change anything in my past or what I would tell a younger version of myself. To best articulate my thoughts, I penned a letter to younger me.
Dear Younger Me,
You are so full of strength and fire and innocence right now. You spend your days playing with your friends, reading books in bed, and wrestling with your brother. Your life is simple and easy. So much simpler and easier than you know. You are a beautiful person. You are kind and you are smart. You can even crack a good joke from time to time. You have no idea the person you are going to become or the curve balls life is going to throw at you.
You will grow into your teen years and come out of them a completely different person than you were before. Some good, some bad. Some terrible things will happen in your life and you will struggle to move forward at times. Your fire, your strength, and your innocence will be tested time and time again. Your relationships with your friends and family will be questioned and at times, strained. You will learn who you can truly rely on and what trust really means to you. Your teen years will be ones of hardships and loneliness. But it won’t be all bad.
You will make many great friends. Some that you are still friends with many, many years later. You will look back on fond memories and fun times shared with your family. There will be countless days full of laughter, joy, and love. Speaking of love – you will fall in love. Multiple times. You will have some great loves. You will think these boys are the whole world and when these loves come to their ends – you will feel like your world is crashing down on you. But just hold out. Your greatest love is right around the corner.
Younger Me – what I really want you to know, what I really want you to take with you through the years – is that you are so strong. The things you go through are difficult, you will be tested many times, and you will struggle. You will feel weaker than you ever have and wonder where your strength has gone. But trust me – it is there. The things you will go through are more than most could handle. And you come out on the other side stronger than ever before. You will grow to understand yourself, love yourself, and cut yourself some slack for once.
You will be great.
So, when it feels the world is getting to be too much and you’re questioning your place in it all – just remember, you are full of strength and fire. And there’s nothing life can throw at you that will put that fire out.
For your amusement – some
great pictures of younger me: