Two weeks later, we all huddled together outside the gymnasium. Our principal was talking and any minute now he was going to start calling our names. We all stood together one last time, anxious and excited to make this huge step forward in our lives. As he bellowed out my name, I walked through those doors and into the next chapter of my life. As I walked across that stage, a huge smile spread across my face and I swear I walked a little bit taller. Because I now knew what everyone else seemed to know – that I could do it.
Sometimes we think its all or nothing. Sometimes we think we can't have time for ourselves and make time for our babies. And sometimes, that may be true. But sometimes, it just takes a little wrangling, a little scheduling, and a little motivation. Sometimes we just have to put in the work.
Over our years together, our marriage has been full of these perfectly imperfect moments. The highlights of our relationship are the times where things didn’t go according to plan, but we laughed and loved each other in those moments anyway. Our marriage isn’t perfect, but neither is life. And those imperfections can sometimes be the best parts. So, while we may be imperfect, we’re perfect together.
Work/Life Balance - I hate this phrase so much. Everyone likes to go on and on about how they juggle life in the office with life at home and here's a list of tips and tricks and the best way to do it is this and so on and so on. And I am here to say - THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS WORK/LIFE BALANCE. A little louder for the ones in the back! THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS WORK/LIFE BALANCE!
Since day one, my son has been a force of nature. A force to be reckoned with, one that cannot be ignored. I was 40 weeks pregnant and counting. I had passed my due date and he showed no signs of making an appearance. I went to the doctor and my midwife recommended stripping my cervix. It was a last-ditch effort. If that didn't work, I was scheduled to be induced in a few short days. I was nervous. I didn't want to be induced. I had a birth plan. I wanted it to be all natural - no drugs and minimal interventions. An induction did not fit that plan.
I've come to the conclusion recently that my style is simple. This is something I've known all along, but have tried to fight time and time again. I've bought countless pieces of jewelry and items of clothing that fit this image of myself I had in my mind. But they didn't fit me, the real me. I bought something pretty, something bright, something loud. I bought things that were trendy and things that I thought may look good. I bought it all and I wore almost none of it.
This next season of our lives will be one of adventure. As we transition into toddlerhood and summer days, I can't help but smile in anticipation. While I will surely miss these baby days, I await the excitement and wonderment of a child ready to explore. I cannot wait to watch him take in the world during one of my favorite times of year. I anticipate many fun times had and happy memories made this summer. So while today may have been a fluke in our current rainy season, it is surely a sign of what's to come. And I can't wait.
Social media can be a great place to connect, to experience, and to revel in one another's joy and happiness. But it can also be a scary place. The Internet is full of demons - people with ill intentions and negative mindsets. It can also be a place of false comparisons and false security in others' "likes". While I enjoy social media for all the positivity it can bring into our world, I am still hesitant to embrace it completely. And for these reasons, I have put a lot of thought into my son and his relationship with social media. You may think that is crazy - he's not even one! How could he even have a relationship with social media at this age? But he does. Because at this age, his life is represented through mine. Therefore, what I share online can reflect on my son as well.